PAIN: Must it be this bad?

Posted on Tuesday 7 March 2017 @ 07:58 by Commander Save'ena (Sav) Tillatix

915 words; about a 5 minute read

Starbase Medical Trauma Deck 37
Private Recovery Room - Deck 37, Room 117
MD 19: Mid Morning

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PAIN!!! Always PAIN!!! It is everywhere. My internals hurt, my left kidney hurts, my female parts hurt. It hurts to breath, it hurts to move. Fire, FIRE FIRE!! is consuming my skin and fur everywhere. But, contact, I have managed to partially escape the pain by writing this personal log as I have thankfully touched the interface on the biobed and have fled into it, now able to not have to fully feel my body right now.

When I had first woken up, everything had felt numb, at a distance. I was able to visit with Melody and Doc Miller for a bit. I did not know till a bit later that I was still coming out of the pain and sleeping drugs. They had to reduce the dosages so I could awake, and my body could start healing at a faster rate. And then, in front of Melody and Doc Miller, I broke down into a crying mess from all of the pains hitting me.

Heh-heh, the nurses and Lead Doc's reactions, or non-reactions, were priceless. Oh, the nurses and lead doc are female, thank the Creator. I just could not deal with any males right now, now with how my body it yelling at me. Anyways, they told Melody, Doc Miller, and me through my wails, that such a reaction by me was to be as expected. With a lot of the Toluene poisoning gone, my nerves are waking up, as well as my lymphatic flow increasing from its tepid state of before, and that awakening coupled with the deep dredges of the Toluene glue still within my body is causing the fire ants busy eating away at me. OF course, to add to my 'pleasure', is a new left kidney, new right ovarie, and repairs everywhere inside of me, causing pains of their own. Add in my abdomen skin and muscles having been peeled away to allow access to remove the mesh and do the repairs, it's a wonder I am even coherent.

At least, I think I'm coherent. Well, right now, not really, maybe. I think, in that I am accessing the biobed, I am helping to keep myself sane and not just succumbing to the raging torment plaguing me right now. And, they said they had some help for me in this.

Oh... that is what it is. Several nurses are now going to give me a sponge bath, and a massage at the same time, stroking over my skin and tissues to help my body flush built up toxins as well as the poisoning. mmMMmm, this should be pleasant, and here they start... ahaugueahowlkeuhhielhtls...

0958 hours timestamp: Ohhhh ahhhh hrrrmmmm that hurt, even worse than before, that was pure anguish and pain incarnate. At least, for the first several minutes of stroking and gentle pushing by them. I am doing better now. Hmm, or maybe, after having that level of pain, now where I am at, even if worse than before, is still less and I am able to handle it better? Hmm, a couple are at my thighs... is that a flush kit? Oh, they're done already. Whew, well, glad I was out of it when they did that. I guess it's needed, and will be needed a couple of more times as I did have heavy surgery in everything down that way. At least their used to seeing trauma so they aren't reacting in any way to how I look, which I'm glad for, right now.

Ohhhh, yuck, gross, that just reminded me of very bland hospital baby food they feed to patients with intestinal surgery. When manhandled, the big intestines shut down for several days to several weeks, but will start right up again. And, why, that part of me seems to be the least in pain. Heck, my nose, whiskers, and even ears are hurting, from their tips to their base. Just.. just... oh great, a nurse commented about aren't I happy the mesh is out and now I am busy explaining to her the mesh needs put back in as nothing was wrong with it and it needs to stay till my body heals, as decreed by the Apollonia Courts and Starfleet Advanced Medical Center docs.

If I wasn't in too much pain, I would be laughing hysterically right now. Their expressions were priceless at hearing this from me.. me, the gibbering mess, who cannot talk do to the pain, suddenly speaking clearly in a deeper voice about needing that mesh back. And, I can't even say anything about that I truly don't want it back, it needs gone, especially after what Doc Miller told me about it. I don't want it, I don't want it, I don't want it... buy my counselor imprints do, and they have sway while I am in so much pain.

Ahhh, they are finished with my first bath and are drying me off with briskness, all part of the plan to help my body recover. They are turning up the drips for me to nod off to sleep. Now that I am covered once more, they are letting Melody and Doc Miller back into the room to converse with them. I manage a small wave with tear stained face as I drift off to sleep. I guess I better end.. my... persona...

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